10 is out tomorrow. Me and her have been hitting it off great. Rocky start but it’s looking good.
Things are looking great. Brandon decided to tell her that I like her. She revealed this when she asked me through text, “Do you like me?” I told her yes. Then she revealed Brandons asshole move. Doesn’t bother me too much.
She didn’t shoot me down. She didn’t say one word about it after that. Not “I only see you as a friend” or “Ewww Nigga no”. Just a simple thank you as I told her she was beautiful.
Life is good. It isn’t over yet. She’s a minx.
Its 8:00 on Friday. 9/20/13
Should I message her? How would that make her feel? What would she think if I sent her a message? “Oh its Juan. He hasn’t spoken to me.”
I feel stupid that I haven’t said a single word to her in person but can call her beautiful in a freakin’ text. Tomorrow’s Saturday. She wouldn’t want to hang out. She barely knows me!!
These Oreo’s are good.
I’m going to message her.
I’m pretty sure many of you are lost but I have been writing my experience of High school. This post marks 2 weeks already. I have been writing about this girl. I think shes amazing,
I’ve simply been writing about her. I know reading Part 1 won’t make much sense but if you could use your brain a bit more it all comes to sense. I’m actually about to write Part 8.
I’m not sure what to call this whole story. I’ll come up with a title.
I haven’t thought about sex. Its a hilarious topic when I’m with my friends but when I’m alone I like to think of a romantic experience. I haven’t thought about sex with Henyla since I’ve met her.
Today felt weird. She gives off a strange vibe. As if she doesn’t have a single care in the world.
Today was great. I was hanging out at the park with my friend Eddie and Shaun it was a great way to end the day and I definitely enjoyed the experience. I mean I haven’t seen them in a while since we all went to different high schools. It was great.
I’m in class with her right now. She seems so upset. I don’t know why and I can’t do anything about it.
It doesn’t seem like she’s interested in me. Not once has she showed a simple sign. Its okay right now.
I got her kik and we talked for maybe 2 hours. She has noticed me. She’s noticed the stares. The quick glances. She knows I like her but I didn’t say it. It’s simply there. No one has to announce it. It’s subtle.
I learned a bit about her and anything I already knew like her being Brazilian is not a surprise anymore. She knows more about me.
We can’t keep talking on kik. Eventually I’ll have to say something in person. Just not for now. I was going to arrive to school early but a kid was just starting school at 217. I decided to walk him and it was alright. Karma is set for the rest of the week. But no Henyla.
I think I’m doing great. Easy compliments and friendly meaning. Girls love that. I can’t stop with the compliments. I didn’t do much with Alex and that’s what cost me her.
Just simply tell her She’s beautiful. It is the truth.
SHE NOTICES ME! The glances, stares and even when I was talking to Brandon! That was her! Not me! We both have been staring at each other.
Oh this is fucking great man.
I think I’ll finally get the girl I want. Emily was just a placeholder and Jadyne was too complicated. Especially when she told me I wasn’t trying when I stopped by her class to see her every single day.
I still believe Alexandra shares a place in my heart. She truly made me fall in love and showed me that life isn’t fair. I wonder how Henyla will have an impact. She might give me joint pain in my knees. She makes me feel alive and its difficult to breathe when I’m near her.
I just wish she was alone. I think I’d be more comfortable talking to her than with her friends nearby.
How do I ask for her number? Like I said we only have one class together. What if she shares 2 with somebody who sits close to her and works with her? I don’t do that. There’s nothing to be interested by somebody who sits in the back of English class.
The odds are insanely against me. I must find away to make this work.
What If she doesn’t like me back? What If all of this was just a waste of time and she just didn’t feel anything for me.
Well I’m not just going to ask her out. I have to become friends. But not do the same mistake I did with Alexandra. I must be careful not putting myself in the friendzone.
When do I ask her out? I thought I gave enough time to ask out Alexandra but I guess it was too much time. 6 months is a bit too long and I thought Valentine’s day would be a guarantee but I guess girls aren’t afraid to reject on Valentine’s day.
Later that day during lunch…
How should I talk to her. I simply just go to my seat and do my work and stare. Nothing else. I tried talking to her already and that was bad. I know her name and that’s no surprise. She knows mine. So how do I?
I don’t look embarrassing. I simply don’t know how to confront her. When I tried she seemed very surprised. I feel like she does notice when I stare at her. But what still questions me is if she stares back. Janice sits right in front of me and when she speaks its gives Henyla reason to look back at me. But is she looking at me? Or Janice?
But what if someone else takes her away from my grasp? I can’t let that happen. I have to talk to her. It would hurt me if she was already taken. By someone who can’t show her the love and attention that I could.
I’d being lying to myself if I said it wouldn’t last forever. Love is a very rare thing. I’m afraid that the things I say here won’t happen. My hands will be filled or she can’t go out. We don’t have the same schedule. We only see once a day.
I could come early everyday. That could give me maybe 45 minutes to hang out.
We haven’t even had a conversation together.
I’m going a bit ahead of myself.
I should talk to her. @
As creepy as it is I love staring at her. She’s like a masterpiece. You have to look long and hard to truly admire it and I definitely do.
Why is it so difficult? I don’t know. I guess it’s the fear that she might do the same thing that Alexandra did? Or she might laugh at me for even trying? Am I out of her league? I don’t know. I ‘ve already had two girlfriends but they didn’t mean anything to me. One was simply to feed my craving and the other was too complicated to handle with her suicidal personality.
If I somehow miraculously succeed in asking out Henyla I would be even more frightened than ever. How do you lose a woman? You forget to cherish her. I can’t do that. I have to show her that I would be in a serious commitment.
I would take her out to eat and take her anywhere she wants to be. She would never have to spend a cent. I would buy her gifts whenever. My money wouldn’t matter. That hundred dollars that’s in the bank doesn’t matter anymore. I would easily withdraw all it for her. That PS4 can wait. She cannot.
I’m just going to play the staring game until it’s all over. It’s too difficult to talk to her. I think I’m just going to call it quits. Never have I been so afraid in my whole life. Amazing how it only takes a 5th of a second to be poisoned by the beauty of a girl like her. But I did talk to her. Well just a second and it went terrible. I couldn’t handle it and just ran off. I’m surprised I had the courage for that. I felt I was going to faint.
I thought Alexandra made me feel alive. The mystery Henyla gives off with her stunning eyes is just mesmerizing. The thing that she does with her eye liner is beautiful. She’s always lookin beautiful. She is beautiful.
Everything I knew about beauty is a lie. Alexandra was a curse. She spat in my face when I tried to show her that I could be there for her. She haunted me through middle school. I’m past that now.
I haven’t made a tumblr post in so long. I want to come back. I love the anonymity and its an place where I can write without having to be worried about others who actually know me.
I just started high school and I think I’m in love. I want to post some stuff here about My adventure and quest for her heart. First post its coming up right now. I wrote a whole bunch and will simply chop it up into seperate posts. Time stamps will be our friend.
Im excited to be tumbling again.